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Treatment Blog - February 10

18.02.10

My next appointment was for the 16^th Feb 10 at the City Hospital at the Oncology clinic. We had already discussed the prognosis and no-one was prepared or indeed in many cases willing to provide any reliable source for advice because there just simply isn’t any. I’d done my usual home trawl of my favourite sites set  together because they just make sense and others because my past findings there have proven beneficial, but here it was all different, no-one was prepared to offer any thing but statistics and to me that also meant any type of hope.

So you put your own date on your demise and if you pass it then hey hot! I f you don’t pass the date then you get swallowed up as part of the general statistical figure. Needless to say we didn’t attend the appointment. I spent the majority of today with my brother discussing nothing really just putting the world to rights and generally having a good chat. It was this time exactly a year ago that I took some friends out for a drink to officially declare to those who didn’t know that I had cancer that I had it and so it’s apt on this anniversary that we declare to those same friends and all those new ones we’ve met along the way that we have now decided to abandon any more formal treatment and let nature take it’s course.

I’m fortunate that I still have time to put my affairs in order and would like to thank in advance those who have, will and still have yet to bring their offerings of aid to fruition.

When our first child Lydia was born we decided it best for all if Jane stayed off work and looked after the children and neither of us regret that decision, the children have definitely benefitted from it, it just means that Jane is a little behind with the cut throat tactics of the business world and may need some offers of advice on negotiating the minefield it can sometimes be portrayed as. I’m sure I can trust you all, our friends new and old ones again, to assist wherever you can.

I appreciate those that have know for some time now for keeping the secret but now it’s time for everyone to once again know so as in the beginning the awkward and embarrassing questions can be avoided.

I’ll perhaps make a trip into work soon that I’ll arrange with Jas and Jean Garbett to put some finances and other necessities in order in order so I won’t have masses of time on my hands as I do get very tired very quickly but I’ll  try and see as many of you as I can.

10.02.10

Jeez another week gone by festering in am incompatible hospital ward . Jane rang the NHS Direct Line as I was really struggling to breath and before you knew it there was a s Nee-Naah at the door! They were hoping to get a line into my arm but like most who have tried before they failed. I knew they’d take us to  the QMC as they have and Emergency Department and if there was anything seriously wrong to get around ‘Tata Island’ can take ages and that’s without allowing for jams, accidents, and any early evening bust ups. We  zoomed through the whole route no problem which was just great and left me more time to pace the short in a short corridor to make sure I got in the right place.  Into the second bag of fruit, plums and what I thought to be Raspberry fruits, it was dark now and I could still sleep for England and snore for the World Championships. I’ve got a few home visits to make to relatives over the remainder of this week them some news to break a the weekend. Tomorrow with Dr Swanwick at Ilkeston Hospital,

0102.10

31.01.10 & 01.02.10 rolled into one and but I don't seem to ne missing anything, its that sane humdrum routine that I need to break through and get out and get some stuff done. I had Darren round tonight and we’ve got a plan to get the bike back on it’s feet, MOT’d and sold. There’s loads of stuff you’ve forgotten about even if it is your own so It makes and interesting rummage through drawers. I had an interesting email from my boss at work, he’s just returned from sick leave and says its best to leave the paperwork to those accountable for it and work on up to my end of contract date and then, provided all the sums add up simply leave. Sounds simples to me mate! I’m no messy cat by any ones standards and to get my affairs in order shouldn’t take me more than a couple of days tops. If it doesn’t get done by me then I’m sure someone else can figure it out. So there you go I’m not really going to report on matters other than heath wise and what I think might be relevant to others in their quests as was the original intention of the blog! Anyone can always email me off the board and I’ll be glad to answer. I’m hurting at the moment and I don’t know why and would like to very much know why! It can’t be tumour pain. I’ll probably miss tomorrow so I can report with some happier news on Wednesday the anniversary of the diagnosis. Right now I think I’m in the right position to do some reading so that’s where I’m I off to!